Maureen

One day I will play the role of Maureen. I will sing Take Me or Leave Me. I will sing Over the Moon. I will play myself on stage. Someone who thinks she knows herself but is only lost. A lost soul yearning to be found. Yet scared of someone recognizing her true self. She longs to be noticed but hates any attention that gets too close to the truth of her. She is in control of her pieces as they fall apart and come together. I will play someone who is so much like me. I will remember those moments from life that I never want to remember. I will be vulnerable on a stage in front of people I will never meet. I will break the walls down and watch as they fall away around me. I will grow and thrive in my soul. And people will witness this reformation without knowing. They will only see Maureen. Not a lost little girl finding herself. One day. Oh, one day. I only hope that one day isn't too terribly far away.
Theatre has always been a part of me. A part of my very being and essence. I need it to survive. Being without it for so long only makes my yearning stronger. It's a pulling sensation that almost rips me from the inside out. Being on a stage. It's all about being on a stage. Being there to help create something that will never happen again. Moments that will attempted to recreate by those who don't understand the art. Every night should be different. Every night is new. Fresh. A new reformation of truth on the stage and within yourself. It's cathartic. It's beautiful. It's necessary for life. And a huge part of me is dying every day that I am without it.
One day.
Oh, one day.